Monday Musings - It's All Gift!
You created us Lord in
your image, to know love and serve You on this earth and to be with You
eternally. You remain here with us in the Consecrated and Sacred Hosts hidden
behind locked tabernacle doors. This is all gift! None of us deserve this Divine
generosity.
You desire that each of
us become more like You - to always be Christ-like. My response over my
lifetime, Lord You know, has been inconsistent, and at times, pathetic and traitorous!
You want me “to disappear
so that You may appear in me.” “I must vacate my territory,” You tell me, “ so
that You may fully occupy it.” But this can only happen by Your grace and by my
being obedient to Your every command and prompting.
On the few occasions when
I have obeyed Your promptings Lord, I received a glimpse of what You were
calling me to be. Oh, how glorious Lord were the times I obeyed: returning to Your
Church; participating in RENEW, Cursillo, Prison Ministry, Lay Dominicans, Perpetual
Eucharistic Adoration, and praying for the salvation of souls.
I did not always keep my
eyes focused on Yours nor did I entirely surrender my will to Yours. Far too
often Lord, I did not obey You. Yet when I look back on the times of my deepest
anguish, I see now that You sent me Your light and Your angels - a lifeline - to
pull me out of the pit of despair and back into Your loving arms. You allowed
me to succeed because I placed my trust in You. I admitted my sinfulness and
inability to go on any further unless You picked me up and carried me.
Let me never forget that
You promised those who obey You, that their trials and tribulations would pass
and that there was no reason to be afraid. You have always had my back. I was
the one who has failed to consistently say ‘Yes,’ Fiat,’ Your will be done’.
Jesus I frequently pray that
“I Trust in You.” Please breath life into those words so that I will have the
courage and wisdom to obey You at all times and under in all circumstances, not
just when it appears comfortable for me to do so.